I
don't listen to a lot of Christian radio. I don't listen to a lot of radio
period. I prefer to cycle through the myriad CD's I have at my disposal. But
for the past few days I've been driving the car without the CD player. Thus
this morning's foray into Christian radio.
One
of the first songs I heard was by the band Audio Adrenaline. It is called Believer.
It starts like this: "I want to live my life unsafe, unsure, but not
afraid. What I want is to give all I got somehow; giving up, letting go of
control right now."
I
don't know if I can really describe the way I felt when I heard these words,
but I do want to take a minute to explain why it made me feel the way it did.
Yesterday, I gave my notice at Sears.
I
know what you're thinking, but hear me out. This was by no means a snap
decision. Andrea and I have been talking and praying about this for weeks now. I/we
haven't been able to devote the kind of time we needed to prepare for our
journey to Thailand. And after bringing it before our Bible study group, it was
decided that I needed to resign. Immediately. I will be finishing out the
current pay period, but as of the 16th I will no longer be a Sears employee.
Hence, the title.
We're
officially living unsafe and unsure, but not afraid. Unsafe and unsure because
there is little to no common sense in this decision. But, it's a decision we
have felt for awhile was the right one, and it's a decision that has been
confirmed by several others. And we have a lot of that famous peace that passes
all understanding. We are not afraid.
"Do
not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition,
with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which
transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ
Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7.
We're devoting all
our energy now to getting ready for moving overseas. It's unsafe and it's
unsure. It's not scary, but it's certainly exciting.
